Inside

I don't feel awake so much as I feel not asleep. I want to stay inside all day, not go out into the over-stimulating world. Interacting with people wears me out, it takes all of my energy to do it right. Have to control facial expressions, tone of voice, reaction time, everything. When I start to wear out I get crabby, short with people, I cut people off and talk to much. Interaction is always harder for me than it seems to be for other people, but even more so at times like this. I'm having a hard time imagining how I will make it through the holidays.